wanna know why i did it?

[LipstickVogue]

so, when i first did the G. love piece i didnt neccessarily do with the intent of giving it to him later nor did i have a fantasy of getting a design job or anything like that. not that its horrible to have those fantasies or to make art for the aforementioned purposes, but thats just not what was going on at the time.


several months prior to me really getting into G. Love, i had been raped by someone who i thought was a very dear and close friend, and also my best friend's boyfriend. i was heartbroken, confused.. i hadto become sort of numb because anything else just hurt too badly.


well, i started listening. not just to The Hustle, but that one definitly helped. not that its the same situation, but i guess his songs dealing with betrayal and hurt like "Astronaut" really really spoke to me. And when i listened to other albums, i heard that he was really trying to say something. even though other albums may be less personal the hope he sang about and such really made me feel again.


then i saw him in concert for the first time and it fucking blew me away. i couldnt believe how energetic and amazing the show was. i had an assignment coming up, and i was just sort of inspired. i guess the idea that i couldnt articulate at the time was that something he created spoke to me, made me happy, so i just wanted to do the same for myself. i really just did it for myself because the music meant so much to me, so it made me happy to work on.


anyway, sorry for the long story, i just felt like sharing something.

[kelli420]

thanks for sharing. thats f'd up about your "friend" really f'd up. im very happy to hear you turned something very negative into something relativley positive.

[Chyla]

I'm so sorry to hear about that, but it sounds like you've had some healing at least.


How cool is it for G that his life's work can inspire and help people in those kinds of situations? Would that I had that to put on my resume.


BTW, what piece is this? Sorry for my ignorance, I'm new here.

[LipstickVogue]

dont be sorry. the person i am today is a direct result of my experiences, for better or worse. i wouldnt change anything.. my friend that used to date him andhave an unbreakable bond now because we lived through it together.i've become a stronger person.. i've come to terms and thats why i can post about it feely on here.


there were links to it in the art section, but if you can't find it i will PM you the link to it if you wanna see it.

[ben04]

I am so sorry to hear you had to go through that!Thankfully, you seem to be doing well.

[LipstickVogue]

thanks, ben. i have come to terms, and i think im doing really well. i hope its not weird to have shared this story.. i guess im to the point now where i can talk about it freely and i dont feel the shame or guilt that i used to, so it seemed sort of theraputic to shart the story. i dunno.. i just hope no one thinks im weird or silly for it.

[ben04]

and sharing your story will definitely help others who have not dealt with a similar situation. You are not silly or weird for sharing!

[Chyla]

Not weird or silly at all! Talking and sharing has always been part of my healing process also (I think everyone's), it helps it to become matter of fact, not so much this big scary elephant in the living room that you pretend you can't see.


This seems to be a very supportive atmosphere, so I think this is a good place to air woes if anyone needs to. Anonymity is a great thing at times.

[Chyla]

LsV, I checked out your art and I think it's really cool. I am so admiring of those with an artistic talent, be totally bereft of anything resembling that myself. I once took an "artistic aptitude" test and totally flunked it. You get "big ups" in my book, girl, if that means anything to you. I'm sure G totally loved it and was soooo flattered. And I hope he knows why you were so inspired. I hope you get the cash going for the cruise, I'd love to see ya there.

[john]

hey LsV, I was just looking at your art.You should be very proud.you are a very tallented.That stuff looked awesome.I realy mean it.My fav was the harmonica one.Thats awesome


Peace

[LipstickVogue]

acctually, Chyla, he doesnt know the reason why i was inspired. I was too shy to really go into that, especially since i might get emotional and cry or something. not out of sadness, but just overload of emotions, you know? i wasnt really ready to say all that, i wouldnt want to seem like a weirdoor something. it was enough for me that he seemed to appreciate it so much.and it does mean a lot to me that youliked the artwork. i have faith in myself, but its always a good feeling to have others confirm that. and im going on the cruise!


john, thanks to you too. i really appreciate that. i like the harmonica the best too, i think. i worked really hard and it was very meticulous. its nice to see that the careful work paid off. thank you so much.

[sauce.baby]

big hugs chicadee. i know a bit where you're coming from, only he was a
boyfriend who refused to believe i was breaking up with him.. i poped
out some spectacular poems and sketches in the year following.. funny
how hurt brings out the best in us sometimes.. mr sauce wrote some of
his best lyrics when he was battling his depression..



how does that saying go? that which doesn't kill us only makes us stronger ..or something along those lines?

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